Thursday, December 31, 2009

Willingness.

This is something I found that I had written back during the summer:

Show me the way.
I want to do Your will.
Bless me with the knowledge and lead me in the way I should go.
God you are my life.
Take me, break me, and renew my soul.
Troubles come and go
But Your love NEVER fails.
Lord I know I fail you but you still have faith in me.
Give me the wisdom to show your love to all.
Show me the way.
I want to do Your will.
Bless me withthe knowledge and lead me in the way I should go.
God you are my life.
Take me, break me, and renew my soul.
Give this world a chance
One last fighting chance
Show me the way and I WILL follow.
I want to do your will.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Choose.

Thoughts from me....
Enjoy.

I fall on my knees
Begging for mercy and grace.
I know I have a choice
To live or to die?
Pull me away from them
And closer to You.

Even though perfection slips from me
I give my all for You.
The One who dies to save us.
Here's my small thanks to You,
It could never amount to what you did
But I can try my best to live for You.

I can't have my cake and eat it too.
I can't live for the world and You.
I have a decision
Help me and pull me through.
So I can show them what You are all about.

I give my all for You.
The One who dies to save us.
Here's my small thanks to You,
It could never amount to what you did
But I can try my best to live for You.

I feel you pulling me.
It isn't easy but You still have Your hold on me.
The reward is greater
With You.



Sunday, November 29, 2009

Preparation.

Here's what was in our church bulletin today:

"Twas the Night Before Jesus Came"

'Twas the night before Jesus came and all through the house
Not a creature was praying, not one in the house,
Their Bibles were lain on the shelf without care
In hopes that Jesus would not come there.

The children were dressing to crawl into bed,
Not once ever kneeling or bowing a head.
And Mom in her rocker with baby on her lap
Was watching the Late Show while I took a nap.

When out of the East there arose such a clatter,
I sprang to my feet to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash!

When what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But angels proclaiming that Jesus was here.
With a light like the sun sending forth a bright ray,
I knew in a moment this must be THE DAY!

The light of His face made me cover my head,
It was Jesus! Returning just like He had said.
And though I possessed worldly wisdom and wealth,
I cried when I saw Him in spite of myself.

In the Book of Life which He held in His hand,
Was written the name of every saved man.
He spoke not a word as He searched for my name;
When He said, "It's not here," my head hung in shame.

The people whose names had been written with love,
He gathered to take to His Father above.
With those who were ready He rose without a sound,
While all the rest were left standing around.

I fell to my knees, but it was too late;
I had waited too long and thus sealed my fate.
I stood and I cried as they rose out of sight,
Oh, if only I had been ready tonight.

In the words of this poem the meaning is clear;
The coming of Jesus is drawing near.
There's only one life and when comes the last call,
We'll find that the Bible was true after all!'

Author: Dianne Frances Donenfeld - 1988


I pray that I am ready whenever Jesus comes.
Will you be ready?


Saturday, November 7, 2009

Blessing.

For the first time I feel like I am actually in the right place.
God has truly blessed me with a bright future and cool friends.
If it was not for Him, I would be in Nursing school to become a CRNA and would not have known the people I have become pretty close to.
I just realized that when one lets Him lead their life then amazing things happen.
No one tries to make things happen because they just happen.
God is amazing and I am blessed.
:]


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Falling

I am falling hard...

This week has been unusually rough.

Going to the beach, missing a concert, coming back from the beach, catching up on work, school, lessons, revival, and way to much other stuff.
I feel like I am being pulled into a hole with no one to help me out.

Ugh, everything that I have put together is falling apart.
But I guess that is why it is falling apart.
I put it together, not God.
I am not the creator, but God is.
God has given me the ability to do the things He allows me to do, I am NOT in control over ANYTHING.

With that being said, I guess it is time for me to fall.
In the previous blog, I gained many things.
Now it's my turn to fall.

A faith that can't be tested can't be trusted.

God works in mysterious ways, remember that.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Forget

These past couple of weeks have been pretty crazy.

I feel as if I have lost two of my very best friends to drugs, sex, and partying.
I have gained two awesome friends that I would have never been friends with if it wasn't for God.
I am a little shy.

I have been having to forgive, forget, and bury the hatchet.

Of course this is hard.
I am having to bury a part of my life that I have always known.
Forgetting something that has always been there.
Tough.

But, I also feel like I have been tossed from my band's youth group just because of a relationship gone horribly wrong.
Which in the end makes it hard for me to even be in that band.
It is hard to forget a past long gone when people constantly remind you of what could have been.

In the end of my week, my friends and I have created a band called Seraphim.

Crazy.