Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Awestruck.

Tonight at Brasher's, John Henderson was the speaker.
As usual we hung out, worshipped, and sat down to listen.
One of his group leaders reminded me so much of myself it is scary.
We went to school together long ago and both had hard times in high school.
We both had went through some of the same the depths of darkness, but we both are now striving towards our calling that God has placed upon us.
As alter call rolled around, I got to thinking about how undeserving I am of God's love because of my past and also the calling he has placed on me.
I just started crying.
Tears of joy rolled off of my face because I know that God is using me and will continue to use me.
I know that I am going down the road I am suppose to and God will provide a way for not only me but also the ones I will come in to contact with.
I am just awestruck how a God as awesome as ours would even want to use me to further His kingdom.
Man, our wonderful God is so amazing.
Remember, no matter what you have been through.
God still wants to use you.
All you have to do is to make your self available to Him.
The rest will be history...

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Home.

It was by faith that Abraham obeyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. And even when he reached the land God promised him, he lived there by faith-for he was like a foreigner, living in tents. And so did Isaac and Jacob, who inherited the same promise. Abraham was confidently looking forward to a city with eternal foundations, a city designed and built by God. (Heb. 11:8-10 NLT)

How many people do you know that would move to another land because God, the creator of the universe, asked them to?
Or better yet, how many people do you think would hear his voice in today's society?
Food for thought.
:]

Monday, March 22, 2010

Love

I have been reading an amazing book called "From Eternity to Here" by Frank Viola.
It is by far one of the most eye opening books I have read about Christ and how we are intertwined with Him.
I have only finished a third of the book and I have learned so much about how we are the Bride of Christ and we all are apart of Him.
It has also opened my eyes to some things that I have just pushed aside for some time.
We go to church, do mission work all over, and are apart of many different church organizations but does that mean anything if we not fully head over heels in love with the One that created us?
No, it is a good thing to go to church, be apart of drama teams, and whatnot but what can we accomplish if we do not know Him or His will?

Nothing.

Good intentions only go so far without Him.
I believe most people in the Church today just do those things because they have to not because they want to.
I know I have been in that place many times but now that I have gotten to know Him more and more. . .

It has made a radical difference in my life and in working at my church.

I love worshipping the One that not only created me but also decided to save and purify me through the cross.
The One that is marred forever for our transgressions because he loves us so much.




Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Lost.

Will I be forever lost in your shadow?
Amongst the anguish and pain
In the realm of everything I 'm not
A living demon...

Again I try to lose your grip
But nothing seems to let me go
Your control is to much to ear
These scars are wearing in
Too deep...

A walking demon in living flesh
Scared to death of what will happen
If I leave you and find my own way
Who can I trust, what can I do?
Fighting is not the answer
I must get out and find my own way
Who can I trust, will you help me?
Gain a soul...

Why must you treat me like this
I am human too
Oh God, please help me
Bring me through...

This demon is resolved
You are going don
I am done with this
I am finished with you...

A walking demon in living flesh
Scared to death of what will happen
If I leave you and find my own way
Who can I trust, what can I do?
Fighting is not the answer
I must get out and find my own way
Who can I trust, will you help me?
Gain a soul...